back to Monday.................

Got up a little later than I wanted to this morning, since the kids are out of school for the summer I haven't been so motivated in the mornings. Now that my evenings are somewhat free again I am trying to make time to get back into my Chronological Bible Reading's. I am a month behind! I was taking an evening class that was 3 night's a week and had to buckle down and get some study time in. That's over and I passed the class so back to the bible study.

I have decided to get up an hour earlier in the mornings to do my readings. Once I am done with that I can get on with my morning routine. So, that is what I did this morning. Sometimes readjusting a schedule is a very hard task for me. I wish at times I was more of a spur of the moment type person. I find though as I get older, I am getting better.

Made it to the gym this afternoon, got in 45 minutes of cardio and did weights. Went to weigh in for the contest and found out it is the 1st and 15th of the month. It will be Wednesday then, the first. I was taking Belly Dancing for awhile back in 2007, I have decided it is time to get back to it. I really did enjoy it, and not really sure why I ever stopped. Well, maybe I do, who am I fooling! 2007 is when my whole spiral down started happening! Pull up a couch and get some coffee.......................

I had made it to 173 lbs in May of 2007. If you go back to my "OLDER" post you can sort of catch up on the whole numbers thing. Any how, I was looking so forward to two things that were coming up at the end of June and the the first week of July. End of June 2007 my 20 year high school reunion. Because of some issues with my step dad in my 12th grade year I sort of left right after graduation to move to VA. My step dad was an alcoholic and was WEIRD and could be abusive at times. So, I didn't really enjoy my last year of school so much, just wanted to get the heck out of dodge. I moved her to live with my Dad and step Mom. OK, so wanted to go to my reunion see some old friends and to be nosy and see what everyone was looking like! I was somewhat proud of myself, I weighed less than I did in high school. You can read some older post for that story as well. I had my tan going on, I was feeling pretty good!!! The week after the reunion, me and my family were leaving on a cruise for our vacation! YAY, couldn't wait!!! Goal was to get to 169 by the end of July, pretty reasonable goal.

I have a daughter who is now 17 but at the time she was 15. Couldn't ask for a better child. Always helpful, did pretty good in school, had plenty of after school activities, not a real smart mouth (yet), just a real good girl. She had started high school that year, coming from a catholic school to public school. Just really got mixed up some real JERKS! No signs were really present to lead us to believe she was going through some rough times. Never missed school, no tardies, grades were great, and nothing out of the ordinary. Until one morning, my husband had to work overnight and came home at 6 A.M. in the morning. He came in to get me and go outside to see something, I went back out with him and her bedroom window was cracked and a milk crate was sitting on the ground. I go back in to see what the heck was going on and she is GONE! I really can't tell you exactly how I felt at that time. So many things had went through my head, did she sneak out, and where did she go. I never want to feel those feelings again, the worse day of my life EVER! Those next 2-3 hours seemed to last forever. As the world was waking up and going on, mine was falling apart. Well, she did come home with in the half hour of knowing she wasn't there. I wanted to knock the **** out of her, I wanted to hug her, I wasn't sure what to do. I never in a million years would have thought that she would ever do that! Okay, so she snuck out to be with a boy and there are many other things that happened and it still to this day haunts me, BUT the good news is, I think we have 99% recovered. We are building back the trust and all that was damaged. In all my life I always heard people say how hard it is to build and gain trust back. Never really understood what it REALLY meant. Never had that happen to me personally. NOW.......I know! If you ever have ANY problems with teenagers, message me! I am stronger now, no one can hurt me,,,,, I have 2 of THEM! Seriously though I am here.

Counseling sessions, hurt, not sure if we as parents were making right decisions, feeling like failures and all the other things got in the way of my weight loss efforts. Oh yeah, back to me, kids and parenting should be a whole other blog! And little at a time here came an ounce or two, sometimes a pound. Seems like it took me forever to recover, trying to just get a pound off at times. 2008 was real roller coaster...I was taking care of my Mom, she had some medical issues. My Dad was working for a contracting company so he was off in Iraq and I was keeping up with his finances, home and dog. I was going to college trying to concentrate on my classes. Besides running a daycare in my home. Life was CRAZY! The biggest thing of all, now that I look back. As a family, in 2007 we had decided to try out some new churches and along with that had gotten out of the word, out of church and you see that's when everything went down hill. Finding a new church can sometimes be uncomfortable especially when you have gotten into such a routine. But, in August of 2008 we made that BIG step and have felt really good about the decision. I think by the end of 2008 we were finally feeling some peace as a family again. It really is learning how to balance life, and slowing down, making time to breath, relax and enjoy the day.

I have gotten WAY off track! So, my point is,do I really have one? Who knows! So, I want to get back to the things that I was enjoying on my weight loss journey. Make it fun, so I am going to get back to belly dance, big belly or not! I want to feel good about myself again. I just have to learn to stand before I can walk, walk before I can run my race. You can catch all that on an older post as well, if you want...... Okay so off to my race!

Terri

the agenda........................

So tomorrow is weigh in day at the gym.........how many weigh in's must one have? I think one should be enough for the week, oh well I'm not normal. Weigh in will be followed by 45 minutes of cardio then on to the weights.

Saturday evening was wonderful with Mike. We checked out a new place for dinner, it was excellent. Sunday was pretty much a LAZY day. Really didn't intend for it to be that way, I think the sun from Friday at the beach wore me out. Oh well, I sat and watched the NASCAR race with him and relaxed.

Trying to make plans for the 4th. Everything is sort of up in the air right now, hoping my sister from Durham, NC will be coming up for the weekend. It is always nice to have her and her family around. It is like having a big old comfy warm blanket wrapped around you. We love to talk, be with our kids, gossip, laugh, look at pictures, and just watch T.V. sometimes. Hopefully they can make it.

Going to enjoy the rest of the evening and get prepared for a busy week.

God Bless,
Terri

doing what I want to do.........................

Here it is Saturday morning and I am doing what I enjoy most when we don't have anything else to do of importance that is! Enjoying a cup of coffee, catching some news, making my weekend list and still in my PJ's.

We went to the beach yesterday and I am a bit sunburned on my back and shoulders, OUCH! It was nice getting out for awhile and hanging out with my kids, as always.

I have decided,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,to get back into the 5k's that I used to enjoy doing and to start training for next years Rock and Roll 1/2 marathon (2010) held every September in VA Beach, VA. Wish I had a friend or someone to train with but I guess, I will go it alone.

For starters I guess I will start back in the neighborhood for my walk/runs. Need to get back into the swing of things, goes along with the "Running my Race" post.

So, for now I am going to get off here an do some dusting and laundry, get to the grocery store, bank, and then get ready for date night with my husband. We are going to Rescue, VA to have dinner at Captain Chuck-a Mucks. It is about a 45 minute drive from here. I am looking forward to the drive and conversation most of all! YAY!

Terri

weigh in friday............................

Not a good weigh in! Well, I guess it's not BAD either. I had a gain, +0.5 ounces! This is caused by a few things I can think of, # 1 No journals in food tracker, will do this week. #2 Didn't make it to the gym this week, will do coming up week, have already planned out the schedule.
#3 Was just plain ol' not focuses at all.

Will I ever get to the 199 lb. mark? Irritating!!!!!!!! Want to get back to that 173 sooooo BAD!

Okay so I sat a goal this week to see on the scale.........................-3.4 lbs.

Other goals:
Record in food journal daily
Exercise daily
Get back on Vitamins

Running the race,
Terri

productive..............................

Today was a little more productive. I was able to plan our menu and grocery list up to next Sunday 7-05-2009. Planned out my workout schedule for the next 2 weeks. Went to the bank to make deposit, stopped by Walgreen's to pick up prescription's and have some picture's developed. While I was there I picked up some things for "Beach Day" tomorrow. Also, went by Dollar Tree for beach toy's and craft things for the summer daycare kids.

Dinner is the oven, we are having homemade pulled pork BBQ sandwiches, the meat smells good it has to cook for 6 hours, YUM YUM! Along with that we are having baked beans coleslaw and corn on the cob.

Laundry is caught up and the kids are napping! All is well here.

God is good,
Terri

random thoughts, again...............................

As I wait to pick my daughter up from driving school three things have came to mind, pre-planning I guess. Next year our family will be hitting some MAJOR milestones in life, seems like a year to celebrate, WOW!

January........................Mallory will turn 18
April..............................Michael will turn 16
May...............................Mike and I celebrate our 20th anniversary
June...............................Mallory graduates from High School

Looks like it will be a year to celebrate, and to Thank God for all these wonderful events he has led us to.

Note to self: Need a new notepad to start planning! Look out Target!
I think I will need a new camera as well, YEAH!

Friday is coming and it will be time to weigh in...........how will it go? Not sure, it's been a busy week and the weekend was kind of busy too. I am looking forward to Saturday night, it's date night with my husband! We are planning to take a ride to Rescue, VA and try out Captain Chuck-a-Mucks seafood place. So the conversation and time alone will be much welcomed!

Nothing much going on tomorrow, I think I might need to make something fun happen!!!!

Friday is beach day with my two, and the two older daycare children!


For now,
Terri

what to do with Wednesday..............

Here it is Wednesday and it's been crazy already!

This morning I was catching up on all the wonderful blogs. It is nice having that time in the morning to sit and relax, not running the kids to school. Only problem is that when I prep the coffee last night, I forgot to put the filter basket thing back in. SO, at 5:00 A.M. came out to the kitchen to find a mess all over the counter, coffee and grounds! Once I finished that mess I had a shower and started in on the laundry.

Trying to think of something to do today.......................
Things that came to mind:
Botanical Gardens,,,,,,,,,,,not in the mood
Beach,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,no, feeling blotted (LOL)
clean,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,boring and I don't want to
I guess we will just do the usual.
I have the PSI I need to study for so I guess that's my answer. I actually took it yesterday and failed by 2 points! So I will take it again Saturday.

Will post more later,
Terri

passed.................................

A quick post just to say, I passed my Real Estate Principals and Law Class!!!!!!!!! YAY, Thank you Jesus! Next and final step with this is to pass the Big Kahuna test, the PSI and I will be official!
Also, made it to the gym yesterday weighed in, lost 1 pound and some ounces, I know I could have done better, BUT, I had a lot going on including my test and I just wasn't as focused as I wanted to be on weight! So focused it is for the week.
Today I am making my two teenage children sit down with me and plan out some lunch ideas for summer! We always seemed to have just run out and get lunch, or Mom can we go to 7-11, and Mexican! So, this summer it's not going to happen, we are budgeting!
I have my summer gloves on and ready to go!

More to blog later,
Terri

a day to myself..........................

Let me just say first, please excuse my mess here. I am still learning new things with blogging! I just figured out this morning how to change the background! Now I have to figure out the rest! I always love looking at every ones blogs and how cool some are set up. I'm coming along!

Now this is what made me think about the topic, while sitting here messing with this, it's almost time to stop to take the kids to school, 4 days left! So I am going to have to stop take them and hopefully upon returning I will sit back down and finish. Then between 7:30 and 8:00 A.M. my daycare kids will start to arrive. By the way, my Mom moved back in with us in August. Then during nap time it's time to go pick up my kids. Back again, kids up from nap. House is full of life all day, (praise the lord) parents start to come to pick up, son's friends knocking on the door, kids laughing and running, door opens and shuts all day, flies are in, cat goes out, husband comes home from work, kids leave by 5:45 P.M. and we are off for the evening, sometimes! Ballgames, dance class, meetings, and whatever needs to be done.
I often have those thoughts of if I just had one day to MYSELF in my house! I have thoughts as I'm smiling to myself of all the things I would do! Now for it to be perfect, I would make sure the house was spotless before hand so I wouldn't spend the day cleaning. Check! I could scrapbook, watch some T.V., catch up on my chronological Bible readings, stay in my favorite PJ's most or perhaps all day, layout in the sun, blog, check e-mails, surf the web just all kinds of things. Now I would like for someone to be home by night time as I am a chicken for sleeping while being at home by myself overnight!
I might just have to close my eyes and pick a day on the calendar and find safe fun things for everyone to do something!

For today though, I am going to do some laundry, unload the dishwasher, kids get out early today so once they get home they are going to clean the family room with me, then Mallory and I are going to the gym, then home and shower, kids up from nap, and I will be off to school. I have one more class after tonight! YAY! I went to meet the broker, he called Monday and scheduled to see me on Tuesday. It went really well, and I am going to work with him! He is going to keep in touch with me from here on out out, once I pass my PSI test I will start some training on writing up contracts etc......He gave me some tips for passing my PSI and put me at ease. I am so excited to get in and get started! God is so good! WOW!

Running MY Race in peace now,
Terri

bump in the road..............................

Well, I think I may have had a minor bump in the road to my contest! Last night it was raining and thundering, just a really cozy night! Mike and I watched Valkrie, not sure if I spelled that right, but it is the movie with Tom Cruise. I thought I would be bored, it actually turned out to be a good movie. Okay, so movie was over and it's still raining and it seemed like it would be a night for a cup of coffee. Michael just had to bring up Krispy Kreme! So here we are at 9:30 P.M. heading to KK for some doughnuts, and the coffee. I must say it did hit the spot. I REALLY didn't need that! Saturday morning we get up enjoy the coffee for the morning, had some laundry going everyone except for Mike and I are still in the bed. I watch some news, then remembered my fast from Food Network was over so i thought I would see who was on there. Some lady has a show on now that all you need is 5 ingredients for her meals. I'm watching and what do you know she is making French Toast with whipped cream and strawberries. I just so happen to have the ingredients! She made the batter a little different, she used heavy whipping cream. I had to try! She also made bacon and drizzled a tiny bit of maple syrup on it, had to do that too! To the kitchen I go. Now, everyone loved it and I must say, I will start doing my french toast this way. the bacon was good as well.

I just had the munchies the rest of the day. Cheese puffs, pretzels,and diet Pepsi. When I took Mallory's boyfriend home, I made a quick stop into Wendy's to get a chocolate frosty. After I dropped him off on into Taco Bell. Two taco supreme and a nacho bellgrande, well it was the $.99 one. How crazy was all that mess? STUPID. At that rate, I'll never get to where I want to be! Ok, so tomorrow is a new day. Saying a prayer about that!

Terri

first................................

Summer Shakin' it Up Contest weigh in was Monday, June 1st 204.9

Today is my FIRST Non Weight Watcher Weigh in @ home. Friday June 5th @ 6:00 A.M. 202.1

And I'm off.................................................Ok, so Weight Watchers is over for now, I am official. Pretty good week here, just busy with school and home etc.......

Met a pretty nice assistant broker last night at school. I need a boss like him. Very motivating! He reminded me a lot of Dave Ramsey! I liked the fact that he also doesn't answer his phone on Sunday's while he is doing church, and on Fridays after 4:00 P.M. It's date night with his wife. Gave him my name and number, maybe he will call. If not I am calling him!

Not much going on today, going to do laundry and try to get some dusting done. DO NOT want to spend the weekend doing that! It is a perfect rainy morning out so no real reason to be out running around. I think I am going to to go to the gym at 2:30 after I drop Mallory off at Nick's unless he is hanging out here tonight. We will see!

Saturday, Michael has a ballgame at 11:00 and he is going to a ball for the ROTC Saturday evening. I will take pictures!
Sunday is church! That is it for us this weekend, just looking forward to being free of little kiddos this weekend. No parents coming to drop off and pick up. NO KIDS in my house! Except mine, they are different they are MINE!

Well, I am just RAMBLING so I will get off here, I have to take the kids to school here in 2 minutes. Mallory will be out checking on me soon!

Bye for now,
Terri